The Word...Love

I've been telling myself that i do not wanna fall in love, or all sort of, because i can't afford a brokenhearted feeling. Those feelings when you feel like you are breathing fire every time you inhale and exhale that so called oxygen. But it's not life if you can plan everything as you wished right? Some people i've let go in the past, are back in the present. I am not too sure what for. But that tickles a bit of my fancy. There has to be an answer to this, only not right now. Maybe i just need a little patient. And let things flow. Because who knew, somebody actually drew a smile back to my face. :) www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com

Went nutz with the cousin in Holland...again

So, i went back to see the family in Holland again this year. My cousin Dennis text me on my arrival day saying 'i'm taking you out clubbing tonight?' (please take note that i had just arrived from an 18 hours long of flight) hahaha he didn't take no for an answer. So we met at Sciphol Airport. It felt good to finally reunited. And he sent an email to Amsterdam Supper Club. They had this 'Monday Party', he said on his email 'My friend from a huge radio station in Jakarta arrived today, and she's gonna write about this party, so invite us!' (Which they did, and which is why i'm writing this down now) ...the party was great, the DJs were awesome. On top of all we went out breaking the rules...lol..hey don't judge, it's legal to be high in Holland...it's the survival kit for the country is way down under the sea, gotta get high to stay alive they say! (That's the DJ we emailed) www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com www.cherylmarella.blogdetik.com

The Italy Trip as a Gladiator, The Vatican and The Tourist

So this is one of the best trip ever. believe it or not, the partner in crimes were my parents. Ain't they awesome! We flew with Easy Jet from Amsterdam (it's one of the budget airlines, and i loved it, very recommended), landed in Rome and started exploring. One thing i realized about Italy is: NO BODY IS UGLY! EVERYONE'S HOT! Oh my goodness! hahahaha! Next destination was the Vatican. Went to see the pope. Oh and by the way, every where in Rome is all about AS ROMA the football club. I was hoping i bumped into Totti! hahahaha And the last was Venice. It was a wonderful sight being there. Amazing journey and my parents are the best travelers! www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com >

Wow Extreme Tuners Second Rerun on Discovery Turbo!

Rikas text me the other day saying the show is back on the air on Discovery Turbo! Ha! Got all excited i gathered pics from some episode compilation... Yeah boy! I did all that crazy shits! hahahaha Maybe i was actually born a dude. LOL Enjoy the show fellazzz!
www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com www.cherylmarella.blogdetik.com

Growing Up not Down.

They say people change, i think it's more than just true. I remember when i was way younger i used to think Pink is a great color. But now I think red and black are the best color. But that's just a philosophy. Pink is a bright and soft color, I was a kid, nothing had touched or hurt me yet. Come to this timeline, where i've been through a lot, things had changed, love, trust, loss, life, death and everything in between made me who I am now. I have no other option but to stay strong. It's either fight or defeated. SO i guess being defeated is never been my option.

Growing up means i have to accept flaws and fix it. Not just the flaws of people around me, but most of all, my own flaws. It means I also have to find way coping with loss, betrayal (this is way harder if it came from the people you trust the most), broken heart, and how to get back up after you fell hard.

But I guess the school we are in, which is this world, teaches us to be either a fighter or a loser. And for damn sure i wont be a loser. I will never gonna live in denial, If i love or hate something I will say it. I wont be fooling myself with bullshits, and if other people can't handle this, then good, i'll know which one is worth fighting for, which assholes i need to just drop it like its hawt. lol

all and all my friends, life is a lesson. If you cant change a situation, change the way you look at it and be fine. Coz whatever it is, if it didn't happen, then it's not meant to happened, move on.

luv,
cee
www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com

Be Strong and Take Courage

I was talking to a friend about how i thought 'this is so unfair, i was doing great before i hit another rock bottom' but he said 'no, it's good actually, knowing that

you're still alive'. He's got a point. I mean, i've been through this so many times. Those goodbyes, letting go, heartache, feeling upset, pain and betrayal, I just need to switch my mind so it will encourage myself to be strong and just walk on by. I keep telling myself that it's for the best, and best thing that will happened is that i'll grow thicker skin. Then i went to church and a youth ministry two days in a row, the preachers were preaching about 'Being strong and take courage', it hits me hard.

There are always choices whenever we are dealing with pain, is to grieve and grieve endlessly, or to just get back up again, face it, get over it, move on. I guess i'm taking the second option. Whats done IS done. Even all the damage is done. I shall not blame anyone, coz whatever happened already happened. So it's a new challenge of finding myself in the crowded feelings inside. And I only know one way to get there, is by surrender completely to God. Two days in a row i've listened about being strong, courage, Love and faith-ful. I bet those are the answers for me. Get back on my feet and push it through.

I know me pretty well. My friends said i'm very expressive. When I'm happy, sad, angry or depressed, everyone can tell. I just don't hide feelings. So i've been having my grieving moment, but I guess I can't do this too long. The clock is ticking, there are so many blessings that i didn't realized happens around me, I need to focus on that, and back to living this life to the fullest. Although some perspective had changed, but you are seeing a stronger woman standing here, and none of you can bring me down again. I won't let you.

luv,
Cee.

www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com

True Blue Friend

It's funny how life blessed you with friends. Those who i called 'Superheroes' in life. The loved ones who can point me my mistakes by saying 'you idiot! you need to stop it!' or 'what the hell are you doing? get outta there!' - because they love me for me. Always there in my worst time of life, and will get high with me when life is good. Pure souls. And it's magical how sometimes you can even fall in love with them unexpectedly. And losing a best friend hurts twice as bad as losing a bf. Even if its just losing them maybe for a while. But that's when friendship is put on a test. if we can go through it then all iz well. But i guess only God can tell who stays who leaves. So i'm just gonna keep on praying for my lovely friends to be blessed all the way.




www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com