Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Be Strong and Take Courage

I was talking to a friend about how i thought 'this is so unfair, i was doing great before i hit another rock bottom' but he said 'no, it's good actually, knowing that

you're still alive'. He's got a point. I mean, i've been through this so many times. Those goodbyes, letting go, heartache, feeling upset, pain and betrayal, I just need to switch my mind so it will encourage myself to be strong and just walk on by. I keep telling myself that it's for the best, and best thing that will happened is that i'll grow thicker skin. Then i went to church and a youth ministry two days in a row, the preachers were preaching about 'Being strong and take courage', it hits me hard.

There are always choices whenever we are dealing with pain, is to grieve and grieve endlessly, or to just get back up again, face it, get over it, move on. I guess i'm taking the second option. Whats done IS done. Even all the damage is done. I shall not blame anyone, coz whatever happened already happened. So it's a new challenge of finding myself in the crowded feelings inside. And I only know one way to get there, is by surrender completely to God. Two days in a row i've listened about being strong, courage, Love and faith-ful. I bet those are the answers for me. Get back on my feet and push it through.

I know me pretty well. My friends said i'm very expressive. When I'm happy, sad, angry or depressed, everyone can tell. I just don't hide feelings. So i've been having my grieving moment, but I guess I can't do this too long. The clock is ticking, there are so many blessings that i didn't realized happens around me, I need to focus on that, and back to living this life to the fullest. Although some perspective had changed, but you are seeing a stronger woman standing here, and none of you can bring me down again. I won't let you.


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Saturday, March 17, 2012

True Blue Friend

It's funny how life blessed you with friends. Those who i called 'Superheroes' in life. The loved ones who can point me my mistakes by saying 'you idiot! you need to stop it!' or 'what the hell are you doing? get outta there!' - because they love me for me. Always there in my worst time of life, and will get high with me when life is good. Pure souls. And it's magical how sometimes you can even fall in love with them unexpectedly. And losing a best friend hurts twice as bad as losing a bf. Even if its just losing them maybe for a while. But that's when friendship is put on a test. if we can go through it then all iz well. But i guess only God can tell who stays who leaves. So i'm just gonna keep on praying for my lovely friends to be blessed all the way.

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i have tons of pics, only now i'm too sleepy to upload them. but basically yesterday 5uparoti Concerto was the bomb yo! 4.500 orang di JCC dan 16.000 live stream hits. Dear Lord, again, thank You for letting me be a part of this family! 7 days before the gig the tension at the office was crazy. we were about to kill each other (thank God nothing ever happened). But yeah, at the D-Day we were just having so much fun! It was teh Tike's farewell from the morning show. Jak's b'day and new logo launching. it was hugeeee and i'm so proud! Thank you to all the talented musician Project Pop, Pay Vanya Irang, Anugrah Aditya, Ello, Cherrybelle, RAN and the Orchestra. It was offff thaaa hook baby!!! I love my job, I love my team and the loyal listeners!

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Taub Mumu bikin galau lengkap.

Ceritanya di backstage 5uparoti Concerto kemaren, sambil soundcheck, Ello was playing a tune from Taub Mumu, (back then i haven't heard the whole album yet so i didn't know the song) but when he sang a bit of it and the lyric was ...deep, i instantly asked 'what song is this? I want your album!' hahahaha he gave me Taub Mumu.

The next day, on my way to JCC, listened to the album track by track.
track 1: oh oke i know this one, ngebeat. Ello banget.
track 2: err...agak mellow
track 3: gak kayak mantanmu
track 4, track 5, lalu sampe di track 8 ("seperti dulu" , the song he sang the day before) ....... album ini galau sekali. In a good way. i mean, not in a menye2 way, tapi sesuai judul lah 'buat umum', semua orang pernah ngerasain.

Cher: PING!!! Gue dengerin seperti dulu *nyetir naik ke trotoar mode on* tanggung jawaaab aaah!!!! hahaha
Ello: hahahahahahaha serius? Kenapaaa?
Cher: well, the lyrics explained already. haha *ketawa nyinyir* but out of how many hearts you've touched, you've touched mine with this song dude.

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Saturday, March 10, 2012

In Love with You

Jamie told me the other day, that i need to check out on this video of her singing Erykah Badu's in love with you tune, then i did, and i almost cried. The fact that i love this song a lot and the lyrics is really deep, and how i really know how Jamie feels right now, feeling what i'm feeling, being in love and all the dramas. Oh well...

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