A Change of Mindset.

So for about 2 weeks or more i've been trying to apply this whole 'being positive' and getting the positive energy and work on myself. Guess what, it turns out GREAT! Like seriously, whenever i am being grateful for even the smallest thing in life, even greater things came my way. Its so amazing. The key of doing this in what i lear are: 1. Love. To love ourself is the first thing first. To love God. To love my family and friends, to love this life, the situation im in(no matter how bad coz you know it could always be worse), to love the place im at, the work im doing, to love the haters (this gotta be the hardest, even im still learning to do it without hassitation (err did i spell it right?) Anyway... Love, and be loved. We should have that love so big and abundantly that we dont even need a love back. And love will definitely love you back. 2. Forgiveness. Sometimes we are in a very bad state because of a wrong decision we made. We should make peace with this, forgive ourself, forgive those who hurt you. You know holding grudge can seriously damaged you, hatred, revenge and all those will only hold you back from doing greater big things! You need to be in peace, then you can see clearly the path you are going. 3. Positive Mind and Attitude. If you are joyful (no more hatred, anger, pain, etc) and you can love everything around you, keep the positive attitude. Be at least positive for 51% that happened in life in a day. Not complaining too much but focus on the things you are blessed with. Coz its about time for us all to defy gravity! www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com

Inner Peace Beneath the Clouds

A few posts ago i was talking about inner peace. I gotta say it took me around two years to find it. It was a long journey of finding your own true self. Having faith about love, life, sacrifice and everything in between. And then build yourself again after it was once (or too many) damaged. So many things in life can damaged you. Betrayal, Lies, sadness, grief, grudge, hatred, etc etc. But When you made it, you found it, you know that there's no way you will ever gonna go back down that path, ever again. But life's path is never your call. Storm will come, whether you like it or not. And when it happened, you will think that you lost that inner peace again. But I dont think so. It's still there somewhere in your heart, somewhere beneath the clouds, you only need to clear the air to find it. After all, it is already a part of you that could never be taken away by anyone. With that inner peace, you can forgive, forget, try to look at things from the big picture, not judging about anything, selfless, still love, and just be cool. (With a bit of a fight of course. Coz every storm brings its own damaged right?) The first part will be the hardest. After the second storm, even if you fell, you won't start from ground zero. Don't beat your self up. I always told myself to be still, and know that there is God. One who holds your hand, and never leave and never changed. His promises are true, and only in Him the source of your inner peace will be. To never lose faith. When we have faith we can see all His glory and blessings. Count those blessings, so we can get up and be grateful of what we have and what we don't have. Count those blessings, and help blesses others. Find comfort in each others faith. Don't hate. Don't curse. Don't hold grudge. Ease your soul. I promise you this is NOT gonna be easy. I don't remember how many times i fell. But i always get back up. Never giving up. Ever. There may be storm right now, coz i can't see clear straight to my inner peace. But i will find it again, or i will die trying. www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com

Here's to us

I feel like in a movie scene while listening to this song. Everything bout this song just robbed my soul. The last few nights indeed have kicked my ass. Hahaha thankfully my lovely high school mates and a few other best friends are just awesome. (They got their asses kicked as well, thats why!) Reunited today with Icha and Ruthie. Totally high school! They came to my apt (kinda wish Ruth would've brought me food since i got nothing in my fridge, she actually robbed whatever thats left lol). I called in sick today. Didn't go to work, my stomach hurts like hell.

So anyway we were talking and sharing and listening to this song. And we laughed and we cried and we raised our glasses and said 'F* this'. Then we laughed and laughed. Tears are probably in the back of the eyes. But i am so blessed. I thought i would never love again. I guess i thought wrong. No matter how shitty the situation is now, im still in love. And im glad that i am. I want the person i love to be happy and blessed.Cheers! Here's to us!

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That Inner Peace.

I barely post anything kinda spiritual in a blog. Yeah inner peace is pretty spiritual isn't it? Well anyway, lately everything seems to be overloading. And i am always on the edge... or burnt. Trying to keep my moodswing on the right track usually isn't that hard. But again lately, it is pretty hard. Alongside that impulsiveness in me, seems like the perfect combo to set a house on fire every night. But I managed, to not say a thing when i'm really pissed (well most of the time, and if its to the people i care about) otherwise i think i will just say whatever the heck my sharp tongue wanna say. Juggling work and school is like being a double agent. Honestly i have kissed goodbye my social life. I'm the town prisoner since school won't lemme go. Eventhough i'm leaving for Europe next week, i'm still bringing paperworks. And then i realized my complaining wont solve any case. So i chose to do the 'If you cant beat them join them - crap'. i am soooo gonna drown myself in this busyness, and just enjoy the crap outta it. Sounds like a plan huh? well my plan is to not plan anything. Go with the flow with everything. But to feel good about myself. Oh wait, i've always been feeling good about myself after the recovery. I managed to laugh about myself all the time. Yeah, so i'm suggesting you people to start doing that too. If that failed, there's always joint. LOL I am totally kidding. OMG don't be too serious people. Even the Joker died remember. Take it easy. www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com

Kuala Lumpur (Veve's B'day Nov '12)

So the girls are back! Hitting KL City again, this time for Veve's 125th b'day! Woot woot! It was a lot of fun, kinda like amazing race to be exact. why? Ok so here's the story. Day 1, Nov 24th '12 Veve and I went to the airport 5am, had breakfast, then flew to KL. Where Risa was meeting us at KLCC airport coz she flew from Singapore after Sigur ros concert the night before. We got there, checked in with the help of Ean Hitz, we checked in to Impiana. Drop the luggages, walked down town, had some culinary fest for ourselves where i ate nasi briyani and the indian food, gosh dayum it was soooo gooodd!!! lol. Never had indian food that good in Jtown. Then went back to the hotel, wanted to take a nap but didn't, we ended up watching Malay's sinetron. lol hillaaarious! Then by afternoon, Nana Era and Simba and his gf picked us up, we were preparing for Veve's bday surprise. We got to syah alam (yeah, suburb area thanks to D'masiv band's hotel), had dinner where the boys from D'Masiv came and sang for her as a surprise. Veve was extatic! Priceless! Then we went downtown, to Library, Shac Era and his friends came and join, then we just had some awesome moment i might not able to write here. hahahaha... went back to the hotel at 5 am. I had too much to drink. Day 2, Nov 25th '12 Slept all frikken day. But dinner time, simba, shac, etc picked us up. karaoke niteee! The thing is we were gonna have 7am flight the day after, and we forgot all about it. so karaoke finished at 4am, went to the hotel just to grab the luggages, then airport!!! andddd... we ... missed .. our ...flight! LMAO!!! Imagine the hangover while trying to catch the next flight was .... awesome. We managed though... Day 3, Nov 26th '12 Landed in Jtown, Veve and I took a cab while Risa rode an ojek straight to the studio. Her show starts at 1, it was already 12! I got home then went straight to Depok, i got a presentation in my class later in the eveneing, while veve went home then back to airport coz she had to host in Surabaya in the evening. There goes our hangover amazing race days! It was fun!

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(Recap Posts) Last Episode of Radio Show TV One

Radio Show TV One memang udah selesai, tapi gue belum sempet ngomong apapun soal ini. Being part of the history of indie music show in Indonesia i am actually really proud. Awalnya manager gue, Mike nelfon di suatu hari di bulan Juni, katanya orang TV One ada yang mau nyari host buat Radio SHow. kebetulan gue sama Caesar Gunawan lagi ngehost untuk Liga Spanyol dan slotnya muncul di Radio Show malem itu. Selang seminggu, dipanggilah gue untuk meeting dan syuting Radio Show episode pertama barengan sama Kang Sandy Pass Band. Then the rest is just history … it was a show where i can be myself, with music that i love. Apalagi berani banget nih naikin musik-musik yang nggak mainstream. Mulai dari geng potlot, Beatles Night, Mocca, dan band-band indie dari berbagai daerah di Indonesia manggung disini. Sayangnya keseruan harus berakhir tanggal 14 Oktober kemaren, semua host dikumpulin untuk shooting episode terkahir Radio Show. Dari Kang Sandy, Jimmy Upstairs, Buluk Superglad, R.Djangkaru, Anita Mae, Dennie Sakrie, etc ngumpul untuk ‘rusuh’ terakhir kalinya. Begitu selesai, gue pulang bareng Djangkaru, yang bilang ‘Okee Cher, besok kita move on…’ I guess thats what life is all about. Everything, they come and they go. Moving on from a great family that i've been a part of for quite a while, seems a bit surreal. But having the whole crazy memories, (especially the birthday surprise on the show) is one thing i could never forget! Tapi twitter yang masuk ke gue nggak berenti-berenti, pake hashtag #Saveradioshowtvone pula. jadi terharu kan hehehe… but thank you to all the hosts, the team yang udah ngasih kesempatan untuk jadi bagian dari sejarah musik Indonesia, dan semua penonton setia. Semoga musik Indonesia tetap jaya! Cheryl Marella.

The host bidding farewell

My Last episode

My first episode www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com

The Word...Love

I've been telling myself that i do not wanna fall in love, or all sort of, because i can't afford a brokenhearted feeling. Those feelings when you feel like you are breathing fire every time you inhale and exhale that so called oxygen. But it's not life if you can plan everything as you wished right? Some people i've let go in the past, are back in the present. I am not too sure what for. But that tickles a bit of my fancy. There has to be an answer to this, only not right now. Maybe i just need a little patient. And let things flow. Because who knew, somebody actually drew a smile back to my face. :) www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com and www.cherylmarella.tumblr.com