Personality disorder test

i took a test, and this is the result.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate



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hahahaha
yes i am sick, and yet y'all still love me.

love
cee

Best friends last forever? Maybe not.

people can be ridiculous sometimes. your friend can be one of them. i used to think friendship last forever. now i learned that i was wrong. your friend can be your biggest enemy. not that i would call her that. i cant even be bother calling her enemy, since to me she is no longer existed. don't get me wrong, she's the one who deleted me from twitter, facebook and bbm. so its fair enough to consider that she is dead. only there's no funeral.

while in the other hand, the person that's been an enemy in the past is now my best friend. so yeah, i've lost nothing. and this entry is a closure. that the friendship is done. for good.

no love,
Cee.

This Love - Craig Armstrong

it is raining at the moment and it chills me to the bone. the song i'm listening to is pretty chilly as well. fave part of the song would be ...

'This love

This love is a strange love
A faded kind of mellow
This love

This love
I think I'm gonna fall again
And ever when you held my hand
It didn't mean a thing, this love'

anyway, that's not the point of my entry. been busy lately and i frikkin watched Franz Ferdinand 2 nights ago @ Playground. They performed the song 'Take me out' now i can die happy. hahaha. right now i'm at Rubein's shop, gonna pimp my bb, then go help mom at the clinic. at the same time the cold wind just giving me mellow thoughts. and i made a good sentence last night..this is original haha

You are my guardian angel,
the only difference is that you dont have wings,
just an ordinary human being who sins every now and then.

maybe i should put that into a song lyrics.

love.

Happy Birthday Dennis Adishwara!!!

Hahaha Nadia Flo is such a good wife!
Gue ditelfon aja siang-siang bolong ngasih tau mau ngasih surprise buat Dennis :p
Mendadak gilaa!!!
Hahaha untungnya latian sama Starla emang gak jadi
sooo...we ended up giving him a surprise!

and he was surprised!
Thank God for that since we were stuck in traffic before
so looking at his face all happy it payed off!
Dan itu semacam konferensi meja bundar bo

kita ngakak terus disitu hahaha

Happy Birthdayyyy!!!
Luv
Cee

ps: some thoughts at www.mypsychodelicmind.wordpress.com

The Recapz while i was gone...

so

A few things happened
hari sabtu kemaren tgl 22 arisan tarki dirumah Vira.
we had fun!!!

My Birfday baby!
Friends at work made me a surprise..
di Jak FM

and we posed!

Terus di on-air-in jg sama FYI
O Channel
hehehe jadi 2x aja ngerayain secara tidak disengaja

Padahal niatnya cuma dinner sama mamikuuu
i love eating pancakes with her <3

Java Rocking Land
The crewww!!!

Interview sama MEW
Liat dong bajunya

"indonesian Frengers"

Nginterview Melee juga
and they were madddd funnn!!!

Ada interview sama secondhand serenade juga
tapi gue terlalu malas buat nulis n upload haha
ada di Facebook kok.
anyway...
I feel good.

back from the dead

so i thought i was dead. turns out i was just partially dead. lol. well it's funny now but it wasn't funny then. one day i woke up, and the world crumbled. and i was so emo i felt like i dont wanna talk to anyone at all. so i didnt log into my facebook, twitter, myspace, ym, bbm etc. i went MIA just incase i would murder someone if i didn't. *mulai lebay* tapi, setelah sekitar 5 hari menghilang dari dunia, akhirnya gue bisa hidup lagi. HA HA HA!!! senangnya. i love fighting with my self. i love breaking stupid state of minds and get my brain back on track. i dont care how long it takes, but there is no fucking way this world is going to fuck with me. heehee terlalu bersemangat kata-katanya jadi sedikit kasar. maap lahir batin yah haha. Sometimes you need some space to think, rethink, go crazy, get stressed out, feel lonely, then when you're ready, you broke the shell n came out as beautiful as a butterfly.

emotions are mind trick. You CAN change the way you think. the thing is, do you DARE changing the way you think? Sometimes we are enjoying the pain too much and we surrender to it and it leads you to this thing called 'meltdown'. If we dont always feel sorry for ourself, thinking that we are too good to have to go through something, we will survive.

if i can do this, everybody can.

alkohol sialan on O Channels 5th Birfday! :D

Wheewww!!! kemaren gue nobatkan sebagai hari rempong sedunia. Mulai dari pagi siaran, siang harus mendarat ke O Channel rehearsal buat Music Mix allstar, tapi ternyata karena banyak banget orang jadi ga jadi rehearsal. Alhasil yaa asal-asalan aja haha
serunya yang ngisi acara si Arie dagienkz sama Dito hahaha... :D ketemu dadi, anggi juga, si saykoji juga...rame lah. Iyalah kalo sepi mah bukan ulang taun, mandi tuh baru sepi...eh bisa sih mandi rame-rame *tapi pembahasannya akan panjang kalo ngomongin mandi*

abis itu after party-nya di Kampus joooo...balik aja lagi gue ke imperium. dan disitulah terjadinya penyiksaan terhadap liverku. oh liverku tolong maafkan aku...maksud hati gak mau minum banyak, apa daya disuruh sama boss :p. Intinya pas Molen - Ryo sampe gue udah tolol berat. Untung Onnie setia menemani, Artha juga hahaha. Malem itu gue bersahabat sama tong sampah pojokan ruang lante 2 Harvard. Akrab banget sampe rela gue muntah-muntahin...huhuhu. dan pas pulang, gue lupa aja kalo tas smua orang ada di mobil gue, halaaaah jadilah pak warno harus nganterin balik tas ke kampus dodol itu.

sampe rumah, di ruang makan masih ada nyokap.
Mom: Loh kenapa kamu?
Gue: kbanyakan minum...
Mom: minum apa aja?
GUe: wah udah ga tau apaan aja... *huekkk*
Mom: Yah ampun deh ni anak...yaudah muntah gih muntah *sambil mijitin leher*
Gue: minta anti mual dong ma
Mom: nih...*hihi bu dokter*
Dad: knapa kamu? keracunan makanan?
Gue: keracunan minuman pah
Dad: cap tikus ya?
Gue: enak ajaa!!! *huek*

tiba-tiba gue sadar udah jam 6.30 pagi, laper berat, masih pake baju yang sama lengkap dengan jam tangan, cincin dan make up. ketiduran di kamar nyokap. gilingan...untung nyokap bokap rock n roll...jadinya pagi-pagi gue cuma diketawain doang. hahaha...

dear liver, aku janji ga bakal sadis kaya kemaren lagi.

ps: RIP Mbah surip.

Ini masih bagian normal acara music mix live dimana kita ber4 nyanyi secara agak sembarangan. Eh, gue sih yang sembarangan soalnya agak salah hahaha

Ini baru sampe TKP

dan ini asal muasal dari semua masalah.
hahaha but i Love you guys...

Luv,
Cee